My three months of stay in Paris is definitely the most difficult days since I left home.

Even though the artist who invited me here treated me very well when I first arrived, my body was badly injured and I felt pain on my arm, my neck and my back almost everyday. Every time when I went out, half of the chance the very impatient, unfriendly Parisians would be showing me long faces and giving me a hard time. Not able to speak French in Paris is almost like non existing in the universe. And then I got allergies and bug bites after I moved home, I don’t think I ever sleep well for a for a single night. From having my private room, to sharing it with another person, and finally losing my own bed space, losing privacy and respect, no desk to do my artwork and no mood to go to school, I still said myself in an optimistic way, that it was just cultural differences, that my flatmates were treating me nice in their own ways. Truth is Paris is too expensive to live, I can’t use a computer and I can’t speak French, I don’t have any ability to look for a job, and I don’t have enough budget to move out this flat. Even I was having enough pressure every day, worrying about my injury, worrying about money, still I reminded myself to keep smiling because tomorrow should be a better day. But then when every day and night there were strangers lying on my bed, and people taking away my blanket or shouting around when I was dreaming, I felt like my physical condition is getting worse and worse, and my injury seemed like never recovering. I felt so tired every single second, I could had fallen asleep anytime, I was really really really tired.

Until a day I felt seriously sick when I woke up, I asked myself why my injury is getting worse and worse even after three months of stay, shouldn’t I just go back Macau to take a break and see a doctor. But then when I decided I am going back, when I imagined myself being in Macau, I cried, three times. Obviously I didn’t want to go back, at least not this moment to go back, so I really shouldn’t go back. Ok, then I tried to analyze myself the situation in a logical way. Reason I’m not recovering it must due all external issues, the surrounding. If I could rest well like a normal person, I believe I will get well one day. On the other side, I really didn’t want to give up my French now, I couldn’t even say a word when I came here and now I could deal with everyday life situations and make simple conversations with locals, I have been trying real hard to live a life here. I ought to give myself one more chance.

So, the solution is, I already ran away from that bunch of horrible mainland Chinese. I could never stand living in a place where it shows no respect to individual thinking and feeling. Now I have moved back to southern France to live with my sister in a tranquil city. For the coming days I will just chill and rest and keep learning French. Wishing one day I will recover and back on my road to continue striving as a Traveling Artist.

I might be a brave and tough girl in a democratic society, but I know I’m just a coward if I were under any dictatorship. I’m never afraid of this horrible world is just because I always have the freedom to choose. I’m just lucky.

身在巴黎這段日子，是出走以來最難受的日子。

剛到步時，雖然邀請我過來的那位藝術家對我很好，但是傷勢嚴重，手肩背每天都痛。每次外出，也有一半機會會遇上沒耐性、不友善、永遠面帶不耐煩、總是令人不好受的法國人。在巴黎，不會說法文，機乎等於不存在世上。搬家之後，一直皮膚敏感，又或被虱咬醒，沒有一天真正睡過。由擁有自己房間，到要跟人同房，再到床位也沒了，私隱也沒了，尊重也沒了，沒空間做手功，沒精神去上課，我還是樂觀的告訴自己，只是文化差異，同胞不過是以他們的方式對我好。事實是，巴黎生活太貴，自己既不能用電腦，又說不好法文，沒能力找工作，沒資金搬出去。雖然每天都很大壓力，擔心生活擔心病情，但我還是叫自己記得要笑，相信明天會更好。 但當早午晚也有陌生人躺在我的床，半夜睡著也會被人揭開被鋪，我發現身體越來越差，傷勢又再惡化。這陣子，我張眼合眼也都很累，每分鐘都想睡，我真的很累。

直至有天醒來，身體嚴重不適，我問自己，何以久久未有康復，是否該回澳門休養看病。但當我決定回澳，幻想自己身在澳門的時候，我哭了，三次。很明顯，我多麼不想回去，至少不是現在回去，那我就根本不該回去。於是，理智跟自己分析，傷勢沒有好轉，定必因為所有外在環境。要是能夠正常休息，我一定會康復。況且，我由一句法語也就說不出口，到能夠應付日常，跟別人閒聊，一直努力經營這裡生活，我不想現在放棄。我要給自己多一次機會。

所以，我經已搬離那堆可怕的中國人。我實在沒法生活在一個不容許獨立思想不尊重個人感受的地方。現在我經已搬回法南小城，跟妹妹同住。以下時間，我會靜心休養，學習法文。希望有天康復，繼續向前，繼續做我的 Traveling Artist 。

在自由民主的社會裡，我可能是個勇敢堅強的女孩。但若果換在獨裁專政的國度，我一定是個膽小怕事的人。我之所以不害怕這個可怕的世界，不過因為我從來擁有選擇的自由。我不過是幸運。

I’m so glad today because I went to a Spanish speaking event and I was still able to communicate with the people without too much problem, I think I gonna join that event every week. Now I am having French class every afternoon, and I gonna join a range of different events that focus on conversational practice, am really trying to put as much effort as I could on this language. Plus, am practicing the northern accent mandarin with my flat mates every night at home.

When I was a kid, always I dreamt of myself being able to speak several languages. But then I dumped this dream after I started working, after I went back to Macau. Thought it’s kinda almost impossible because I wasn’t young no more and it’s real hard to learn a new language again. I know I still have to put whole lots of efforts to be able to fluently speak several languages, still I feel amazing just seeing myself having the opportunity to achieve this goal.

The world is so big with so many possibilities. But never I’m afraid of the uncertainty because all the unknown values help creating a brand new version of a better me.

今天很高興，參加了西班牙語活動，大部份話題我還是能夠跟別人溝通，打算以後每星期都去一次。現在除了每天上法文班，還準備參與各類型會話活動，努力學習法文中。還有就是，每天回家都會同胞練習北方國語。

我的兒時夢想，就是能夠說出多國語言。但是工作以後，回澳以後，經已沒再幻想過。感覺人年長了，要學習新語言特別困難，似乎沒可能發生。雖然還是要下許很多功夫才能把幾國語言說得流利，但現在有機會達成這個夢想，感覺十分奇妙。

世界很大，可能很多，但我不怕。因為我就是喜歡活在充滿未知數的世界，造就每一個全新的我。

Estoy contenta hoy porque fui a un evento de español y todavía podía comunicar con la gente sin mucha problema, creo que voy a participar ese evento cada semana. Actualmente tengo la clase de francés todas de las tardes, y voy a participar a variedad de eventos diferentes para practicar la conversacion, realmente estoy tratando poner tanto esfuerzo en este idioma. Además, estoy practicando al mandarín de acento norteño con mis compañeros de piso todas las noches en casa.

Cuando era niño, siempre soñé de poder hablar varios idiomas. Pero ya dejé este sueño después de empecé trabajar, después regresé a Macau. Pensaba que es casi imposible porque no tan joven ahora y es muy difícil de aprender un nuevo idioma otra vez. Yo sé todavía tengo que poner muchísimo esfuerzos para hablar varios idiomas con fluidez , ya me siento increíble ahora solamente para tener la oportunidad de conseguir este sueño.

El mundo es grandísimo con muchísimo posibilidades. Pero nunca tengo miedo de la incertidumbre porque todos los valores desconocidos me ayudan de crear una nueva versión de yo.

This photographer works outside Versailles Palace every afternoon.

這位攝影師每天下午都會在凡爾塞宮外出沒。

Este fotógrafo trabaja a la afuera de Palacio Versalles cada día a la tarde.

Finally I understood what destiny wants me to learn from this injury lesson I now taking in France. It is teaching me to patiently wait for everything on my way, to train me to be a real persisted person one day.

終於我明白，上天要我在法國這堂受了傷的課學習什麼。原來衪要教曉我凡事靜心等待，以後要做個真正有耐心懂堅持的人。

Finalmente entendí lo que el destino me quiere aprender de esta lección lesión en Francia. El me enseña que tengo que esperar pacientemente para todo en mi camino, para convertirme una persona persistente un día.

Inspiring street artists are always around you in Paris.

在巴黎，不管你走到哪裡，都有街頭藝術家為你帶來驚喜。

Artistas inspiradores son siempre alrededor de nosotros en París.

Welcome to Sio’s Paris Tour !!

歡迎來到我的巴黎觀光團 !!

Bienvenido a Excursión de Paris de Sio!